I want to say that I miss us but that would be a lie because (let’s be honest) there was never an “us.” There was her and there was me.
I was the one you slept with when you had a little too much to drink. The one you called in the middle of the night when you didn’t want to hear your roommate snore in the next room. The one you used when you just needed to forget about everything. Yet… She was the one in the picture on your phone background, she was the one you took home to meet mom and dad.
I was the one you introduced to your bros as “my friend.” The person you didn’t mind watching the game with and yet…She was the you leant your jersey to, telling her how adorable she looked with your number on her back. She was the one you introduced to your friends as “my girl”(as if you only had the one).
I was the one that told you that I loved you. I was the one that fell for you. Yet… She was the one you gave your heart to.
And even after (I foolishly let) you put me through all of that, I’m okay. I’m okay because thanks to you I know that I deserve more. More than a guy who cheats on his “girl”. I deserve better than someone who sees me as a friend but is willing to sleep in my bed.
I deserve all the things you gave to her, and more. A lot more.
So thank you… Thank you for reminding me that I deserve much (much) more than to be considered the “other woman”. Thank you for helping me realize that one day I will find a guy who makes me his whole world. Most importantly thank you for reminding me that this guy I’m looking for is most definitely NOT you.
the girl you just lost.
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